I'm so Excited!!!!

Hey hay hay!!.:) Yes i am excited! I must pat myself on the back for doing some major networking! It feels good! :) Update. Well Christmas was great! Gavin got a lot of cool things and i was sooo appreciative! My boss was trying to let me up out this peice at 6:30 on Christmas Eve, i was like oh-no! I've gotta hit the stores before they close and shit and they closed at 6:00! So thankfully he let me go at 4pm and so i was able to make it happen for my babe. I tell you this money dont last i promise! I've got to do something else hell. You work 2wks for a check that be gone in 2hrs!..smh. Well my good friend Chrissy was here for the holiday and we had a smashing good time like always. I can't wait to go down to Georgia and have a ball with her.:) As far as the networking goes, i was able to make a really good contact with Jennifer Hudson. We went to school together, but she was a year over me, but her cousin and I were cool. Well i reached out to her cousin on FB and fowarded my vocals to her and asked her to let Jennifer hear them. She text me today stating that she was going to make the pitch to Jenn for me tonite! *Crosses fingers, legs and eyes and toes!..lol! I told her beautiful and thank you ever so much! I think my song "Make U Mine" would be good for her, so we shall see. I also have been all ova the internet setting up all kinds of accounts and have been creating a lil buzz around my name "Deann Dmere" so i'm happy about that as well. My girl Alesha hooked me up with this producer/songwriter who wrote the song "Anything" for 112 and so i'm s'pose to link up with him Friday. I've been on the internet trying to locate the musician "Monica"'s manager. Her name is Melinda Dancil and she's her manager/aunt. I wanna pitch the song "Make U Mine to Monica with the video concept from So-Gone, like she's seeing Derek Luke's fione ass with another woman and all she wants is to make him her's again. Then they could like show clips of the old video and shit, maaaaaaan that'll be a hit! so i've got some numbers and stuff and i'm gonna be placing some calls.:) I perform tonite actually at this open mic with my cousin's friend "Dilly". He's the producer who's arranging beats for my vocals. He lost his mom rececently so it's been taking some time, which is understandable. He did tell me that he should have them completed tho, by Monday, so that's good... "Floridian" sent me a msg yesterday on the site. Yea i know right..funny! Anyway his message goes, "No Happy Birthday, No Merry Christmas, dam where's the love??" I was gonna respond but thought NOT!! Let him see how it feels to be ignored. Anyway what the fuck is wrong with your fingers?..You could have wished me a Merry Christmas fool! Fuuuuck you and your birthday! So lata for him, i've got other things I'm focusing on, like making it out this hell! I still haven't heard back from the publisher yet, but i'll give him until after the holidays before i start to bug him..lol. My girl Alesha will be in Vegas for NYE!!..Whoo Hoo!!! Wish i was there, that's okay tho, i'mma bring it in with my main man Gavin...i wouldn't have it any other way! Kay that's my piece for tonight peoples..Peace.

Happy Birthday!!!.. Not! Ha!

Mean it makes me, oh well i'll be that. Yep today is "His" birthday and he gets no love from me. Sorry but that's the way the cookie seems to be crumbling. I tried to be civil and cordial with that fool really I did, but he pushed me to the limit! I've been online all friggin day and i checked his page and seen that he logged in 4hrs ago. haha! Must have been to check to see if i confirmed that lame ass friend request he sent me. NOT!..gtfoh!! Surely you dont wanna talk to me. For what? And why send me some janky ass friend request online, when you've got my cell number, my work number, my email! Negro please! I'm done with your ass! I'm not playing! He must take me for a joke. And no no boo boo you aint even gotta try harder. No need to send flowers, or me an email or a late night text talking about "Sweetheart" i'm done! He only wants to play and i do that enough with Gavin. I'm about to be 27 almost 30 and i'm tired of playing these fucken games with these lame ass niccas. So fuck you and your birthday dude..cry about it..blog about..or do whateva it is that you country motherphuckas do! No love from this City sistah, cause seriously i'm done with his ass big d*ck and all!...lol Thats my peice peoples..Peace!

Done!

Yea i know i've said the shit before, but this time i mean it! Yes we're still talking about "him" i mean why does he have to be like a complete 100percent ass jerk! Like really?! My gosh! So just a brief rundown. Again things have been pretty breezy, nothing to heavy and i've been content on keeping it that way. That still doesn't take away from the fact that i wanted some more! Yea we're all adults here i hope. Well anyway. Me being me i get what the hell i want! It's been that way! Aint no shame in my game and the honest to gosh truth is that i want some more of that nicca! But he's acting like a fucken female!!! Ugh!!!! So anyway yesterday evening once i left the gig i placed a call to the "Floridian" only to be shut down once again. He's oh so busy and on his way to a football game. Cool. He says, "Shid just Text me". My reply cool, lata babe. Well i was a bit busy myself once i got home and so I didn't have a chance to text him until i was laying down for the night at like 11:30 my time 12:30 his. I texted, "Tell me something good babe before i go to sleep". You know me Queen Flirt..lol! anyway no reply. Fine figured he was sleep. So today once i return to the gig this morning, i open up the usual sites i visit. You know FB, Concreteloop and TRD as well. Sure enough he's on there, aint said a word. No good morning, i got your text, no hello, just nothing! I dont know who and where they den went and crowned this country bama Jesus, but he initates nothing! Now i didnt either, but replied to a few of his postings on a blog that he commented on. So the day is winding down and it's 3:00pm he leaves at 3:30. So i shoot a msg his way saying, "Whatchu doing ova there huh?" I see i gets no love today..you treat me so bad baby..:(" So his reply is, "Baby i'm so tired its a shame, i'm sorry." Such a crock of shit! He hasnt been to tired to chat on the internet for 8 hrs, but you're too tired to talk to me huh?. Sure. I deleted his ass! Fuck him! I'm tired of giving him the benefit of the doubt! All it seems to be doing is boosting his big ass ego. He really makes me sick. So when i sent the last msg, stating that he hasnt been to tired to talk online all day and how i know he got my text lastnight, he simply ignores me!..lol. Yep! Basically like umm fuck you bitch! So yea fuck you too bitch ass nigga! Tho i did want to do it again physically it doesnt look like it's gonna happen. His attitude sucks major azz and he's too damn rude! Common courtesy is a given and i'm done condoning his rude ass behavior. I was tempted to email or text him again when he didnt respond but decided against it. For what? Clearly i'm an option, or he feels like he has me in the palm of his hand. The only reason why i havent said that he's not interested, because who wouldn't be?..lol vain i know, but hey it's the truth! He wants me, he just doesnt want to let me know and would prefer to keep it to himself and likes that i initiate things with him. It's just confirmation to him that i'm still interested and im sure he loves it. Well i loved the d*ick more than anything. Oh yea and lets not forget that amazing facetime and all the free money! Oh well, it was good while it lasted, but for sure it's dead. He's extremely to pompous and rude and i dont respond well to ignorance. He's lucky i dont live out there, cause this type of shit doesnt happen to me. Had i lived in Florida his ass would have a black and blue eye for acting like a complete jerk!..lol..hell he deserves it. Well that's my ventilation on this Friday Evening. On my way to the x-mas party to get drunk.. Chow!

I'm working tomorrow..

Ugh! Not looking foward to that, but hey at least i've got a job. Been a minute since i've graced my own blog!..smh.. Well anyway what's new and exciting with me?..Not much. Let me see, well i've been doing some major networking with my writing and I must say that it's slowly paying off!.:) I was off on Monday of this week (The reason why im working Friday) But when i got here on Tuesday I had an email from this publisher based out in Atlanta (Argus O. Milton) who was referred to me from a good friend of mine. I submitted my manuscript to him a few weeks ago and he finally found the time to sit down and take a read. Well to make a long story short he liked it a lot!!:)) Liked it so much that his email stated that he wanted to move foward! Heeey Nah!!!!:)) C'mon publishing deal i can smell you in the air baby!..C'mon to mama! So i am stoked about that! I shared my good news with my FB fam, who of course showed me mad love, :)) Outside of that though, it's kind of disheartning since i didn't have anyone to really celebrate with..:(. Oh well being sad never helped any dam body so moving on... I've been doing some shows at open mic venues as well. I've been going for the most part to show support, but then i always get that "itch" and end up getting my ass on stage..lol! It's a real good feeling tho. And even greater when the crowd likes your material. Of course they liked me..who wouldnt?..:))) I've been hanging with my buddy Say-So (Randon) he's such a cool dude. Never has he tried to come on to me or you know get fresh with me. I appreciate that. I'm not trying to be all cozy with every guy i meet, and i'm glad he recognizes that. Most men think that you wanna sleep with them if you show a form of interest in them. Just goes to show you that its almost 2010 and men still dont have the slightest clue about us women. Him and I have the greatest conversations though about the opossite sex. We usually get together and pick eachother's brain about what women and men want from the other. He's a striving artist as well, so we also kick back and keep the creativity flowing with oneanother. I dont know why I jam better with men than I do with females. I think it's because most females have this huge misconception of me. They think, because i dress nice and spend a little money on my attire That im automatically some money making snob who thinks she's too good, when they couldn't be more wrong. But hey, cant please em all so i don't even try..i just keep it moving. Gavin is getting bigger every single day! And eats every five dam minutes! You'd think i was a millionaire or some shit! I'm trying to get there Gavin baby, cut momma some slack hell! Then he's picky as eva! Never seen a 2 yr old so picky about food. Says he wants pizza. I make pizza then he says, "I dont want it. I want French Fries." So I make fries and then he says "I dont want it. I want hotdog" I make that shit and then he does the same thing! I be like boy!!! You betta eat cuz aint no whole lot of selections poppin off ova here! The state don't give mommy nooo.. assistance with food purchases..yo lil ass gone mess around and starve!..you betta eat!..lol! I love my lil darling Knight tho and oh boy does he love his mommy!:)) My twin nephews turned 1 on the 12th of this month and me and Gavin went to the party. It was nice. I tell you this time waits for noone! That's why i've gotta make it happen sooner rather than later..i will...with the Lords help i will. Oh and I will be in church Sunday this I promise. Kay that's my piece..Peace!

Well..hellloooo there...

Long time no write! I'm over here bored as eva at this place called work. I had a pretty good extended weekend. The holiday was this past Thursday (Thanksgiving) and Gavin and I went over to my aunt's house (My moms sister) and ate and played cards and stuff the usual. I was beating they azz in "In the Middle" but ended up giving mama (grandma) $40.00 for her birthday, so that was about the majority of the cash i had won that nite. It's all good tho. Gavin was Phresh! You know his mama keeps him duggie! I'm just mad that i didnt get a pic of him. He was soo clingy over to my aunts..he wouldnt let me out of his sight let alone smile for a picture! I know it's b/c he doesn't know them. It's not like any of them reach out to us anyway. I was actually over to my other fam's house (Gina) for the Eve of Thanksgiving. I spent the night and stayed up late with my auntie (Carolyn) and my other mother (Gina) man them people show me and Gavin so much love it's breathtaking! Babysistah was here from school too for the holiday. I ended up staying over to my aunts for the holiday tho and noone got to see me and Gavin in our funky fresh purple rain over at Gina's!..lol.. It's okay next time... Friday morning i got up and went to the studio. I recorded 3 vocals for 3 tracks. So now all i'm waiting for is the production for the songs to be completed, so that i can shuffle them around a bit you know. I also recieved my letter of Registry from the United States Copyright office on Saturday! That's wassup! I'm on my way and i dont plan on stopping til i get there! My old buddy Alesha had a "Ladies nite" on Friday evening that i went too. I ended up staying over b/c we were all wasted and i was blasted! Good times tho.. Saturday me and Dame took Gavin to Chuckee Cheese. Eeew that place was a mad house! Gavin is so uppity..lol! You'd think we lived in a mansion. He didnt want to touch shyt or take off his coat. The place was bombarded with little rugged disheveled looking kids. Me and Dame ended up buying tokens and we played the games..lol! That Mario Cart is fun as hell! I may be investing in a Wii this x-mas. We went to dinner at Baraccos afterward. Sunday yesterday was chill day. I went to target and got some house cleaning and washing stuff. Still gots x-mas shopping to do and i still gotta get a tree! Hell this lil money dont last at all!!! I looked at my account today and was overdrawn 120.00! I was like dayum!!! I dont know why i be swiping this dam debit card like it's a credit card!..lol! Oh well The Lord always makes a way and if not i'll have to pull a few tricks..hehe..no not litterally!..lmao! But you know make some calls... Facebook brings you back together with all the people who you know. :)) I had always had a crush on this guy named "Mario Soloman" and so we exchanged numbers most recently and the conversation was pretty good..light stuff nothing too heavy. I admit that when i had him pick me up he didnt appeal to me the way he used to. So basically i wasn't attracted to his azz when i got to see him but i was still cordial and cool. Just not all over him and flirty like i probably would have had I still thought him to be a looker. I didn't end the convo and the text's and stuff tho...i kept the lines of communication open. Then one day last week he text me like, "Im thinking about you". I reply, ":) What about me" He then says, "I'm trying to see when you gonna let me bake them cakes!" WHAT! Delete you fool! The nerve of these guys!! Dam! I mean like are u serious. He's been texting me and i've been ignoring his azz. I dont respond well to ignorance (Chrissy) and so i rather say nothing than to chew his azz out! Last Wed before the Holiday i sent "him" my book to read the completed copy, but he's toooo scetchy with me in email convo. It's like pulling teeth to try to get a conversation flowing, so i'm like lata dude! Shiiid you aint gotta talk to this one if you dont want to babe. I did my part already by reaching out and that's all i'm gonna do! No kissing ass will be happening. I sent a "Happy turkey Day " text to all my contacts "him" included. I recieved the same wish back from all but him. He's such an asshole. His arrogance is just a mask for his insecurities. Oh well let someone else worry about all that. I was just looking to be cool and possible get another taste..*wags tongue..lol! But he's phucking that up!..Geesh..i tell you these clown ass nicca's! Oh well i still got 2 that love me to pieces (Dame and Gavin) well i'm sure it's more than that, but the others let pride get in the way.. That's my piece peoples... Peace..

TGIT!!!

Yes sir! B/c today is my Friday dammit! So for a lil update. I've been on a creative frenzy! I've been making some goodie good songs! I must admit myself and toot my own horn a bit.."tooot..toot!"..lol. I'm feeling pretty good. No real complaints. My last post was talking about me deading all the grudge issues I had with ppl. Charisma (Chrissy) was one that i failed to mentioned. Chrissy is well was a "Special" friend of mine and she and I would alllllllways bump heads. We would get along great for about 6 months and then BOOM!!!!...shit would blow the hell up and we would have the worst arguments. Well anyway when i put and end to all the other shit with My mom and Sly, she was also on my list of ppl to contact to get back right with. So i emailed her. Come to find out her azz has up and moved to Atlanta!! Like dam! She seems to be doing fantastic!..:) She's got her boys with her which is grand and seems to have truly found her happy place. Now i've got another place to go visit..hehehe. I've talked to my mom here and there and I plan on going over there soon me and Gavin you know to spend some much needed time with her. The conversation with Sly is light and easy. Good. Nothing to heavy. I'm soooo not trying to get back in that place that I was with him. Because the reality of the situation is that, that nigga lives in Florida! So me falling in love/lust or whatever is pointless. So i'm good with keeping it breezy and he seems to be okay with it as well. My aunts party was fun! It's always a great time hanging out with the fam. Me and my sister be dancing all dam nite! We had a good ol'e funky time. I be having to remind my water head ass uncle that im his neice! He's been locked down for 17yrs and most recently came home and is just too overly sexual in everything he does! Even his looks look dirty. I be having to tell him, "nigga i'm yo dam neice back the hell up!" But it's all good he just be needing a reminder sometimes. My cousin had some producer cats over at the party and I wooooed them with my writing skills. We set up some dates for this weekend actually to try and link up. I'm gonna have to reschedule that though, b/c i'm going to see Auntie in Virgina tomorrow morning! She goes for her second round of Chemo and needs somebody down there. I felt bad that i had told her waaaaaaay in advance that i would come and then today i talked to her and told her i wouldnt be able to get there. She was pissed!! She actually cursed at me which she's never did. So i shelled out a few dollars for the ticket and i'm gonna go see my aunt tomorrow..:)) She's always been there for me and all the rest of us, so it's only right to be there for her. I cant wait to see her too..I miss her! I was going to take Gavin, but i really dont want to. He's just getting over a cold himself. Plus i lied and told the reservationist on the phone that he was 1..lol. I would hate to go to the airport and then they be like, "Um ma'am you need a ticket for your child". Shiiiiid they was trying charge me $228.00 for a 2 yr old! Not me. So IDK i'll have to talk to Dame tonite and see what we can do... Alright that's it thats all I'm blowin this candy shop...TTYS... :))

I Feel Good!!..:))

Soo..to give you an update! Today was my first day back after being out an entire week ( ooh my check is gonna be so short!) However i am feeling a lot better. I called my mom and just deaded the whole issue with she and I and we are now back talking.:)) and i'm happy about that. I wanted so bad to go to church on Sunday, but missed it and just needed to channel all this anger i was harboring elsewhere. I was kind of glad i did miss church though, b/c it was Holy Communion and you know how dangerous it is, to drink and eat on that holy day and have anger in your heart towards someone. I hadn't cleared the air with my mom yet and eventhough i've denied it even to my own self, I was still angry at Big Man... So I actually sent him a text. Just to dead all that shit with him too..and it feels great! :) I was just tired of being mad and it really wasnt doing anything for me so..i let it go. I hung out with my old bestie Glenda on yesterday. Oh how i've missed her! She and I always jammed good together. Got us something to drink on..i had my lil supplement and we caught up..riding.. Rode out west..rode down on my uncle..yea good stuff! On the homefront things are.."eeeh" that's all i can say or would like to say about that. My Darling Gavin was Spiderman for Halloween. I know so cliche' but hey he's a kid dammit! I was too dam sick to do anything with him tho, so super Grandma "Graham" as we call her Gina saved the day and took my baby out. I would be completely and utterly lost without that woman. My Gosh!..She just don't know how much she's appreciated..i'm gone have to show her..she's got a bday coming up. She took Gavin out and said when he knocked on the door and said "Trick or Treat" the lady asked "So who are you s'pose to be?" He says, "Gavin"..lol that's right baby..you're you and I wouldn't have it any other way..:)) My aunt is having a party for her bday next Saturday..no kids allowed!..Whoo hoo! I loves the kids..yes i loves the chiren, but it's sooooo...many of them! I've got a hundred lil cousins and them together is a headache. So being w/o them for an evening is right on time...i'm ready! :))

Pissy!!!

I'm here of course at this place called work. I'm pissed off right about now, but i'll get into that a little later. Just for a recap on the weekend, it was pretty grand! Friday i went to Vidal Sassoon and spent $230.00 on a perm and a nice little pixie cut! I know it was expensive, but the service was great and i actually like the style. I'll definately be going back. I purchased some nice carndigans for Dame for sweetest day and it felt good doing that for him since he's been trying so hard. I always liked shopping for him(I always do a better job than he does). Saturday i chilled out with my lil man and we're getting some work done on our house and it's coming along.:)) I also called my crazy ass sister and deaded the whole "Drama" thing with her about me and my mom's feud. We talked for quite a while. Me and her i sooooo much alike that it scares me sometime. Yesterday Dame and I took Gavin to the Shedd Aquarium to see, "Fantasea." It's a show that's held in the Oceanarium and displays the jumping dolphins and penguins and Ulga whales..he loved it!! And so did Damien's over-grown ass..lol! I had to pull him away from a few of the exhibits b/c he was so engrossed in them. We finsihed it off with dinner downtown and it was really nice. I told him we need to get in the habit of doing things with Gavin "Together" more often. He agreed. Gavin just loves to see us together..it's amazing... So I also called my mom. She didn't answer and so i left her a message apologizing for speaking to her so harshly the week before. Told her that i think that we really need to talk, b/c i for sure still have some un-resolved issues from the past..when she put me out at 15 and choose her now deceased husband (RIP) over her children. I'm guessing Tameca (my sis) has moved on from this. She was 18 at the time, but me i was just a baby. And noone knows all the things that i had to endure at that age to survive. The thing that hurts the most probably is b/c she never said she was sorry. Or she's never said why...or how she could do that to her child. I spoke with her about 30 mins ago and just asked why she even felt the need to discolse to me that amount of $ she had and then to go on andtell me how much she was giving someone else's child. I said, "Ma you didnt have to tell me that. And then for you to get angry when i ask for $100.00. I said, so if i came into 15,000 and didnt give you a dime, would you be upset?" "Naw"..she replied, more like lied! Because i'm sure she would be. I would never do that tho. It's more than about money to me though, just the principal that she wouldn't even consider giving or even want to give. IDK. She ended up hanging up again and so did I. I'm sorry to say it, but i'm done. I just know what kind of mother to "NOT" be to my child...never a selfish one.

Raining Love...

So i am like loving that! I'm woking on coming up with lyrics and making that a new song. Yea..i actually like that a lot. So i'm still at this place called "work" and i've got another 1 1/2 to go..uuggh!!! Working 10hr days in this camp is driving me bananas! When i make it to the crib I am usually beyond tired! All i usually have time for is a quick bite and off to bed to do this shit all over again. Last night when i came home though Damien did have dinner cooking and he ran me some bath water. That was nice..:) He's really trying. My lil man Gavin be so happy to see his mama...just makes me beam inside. I just wish i had more time to spend with him you know.This is why I KNOW i've got to make something happen. This 9-5 well technically this 8-6:30 shit is for the birds! Dont get me wrong i'm more than thankful for the job, but really i cant see myself doing this for the rest of my days. So this is why i'm gonna work on "Raining Love" tonight on my way home and make it HOTT!!! *Chow

Time heals all wounds...

Aint that the truth! I was sitting here reading over some of my older post and it is simply amazing what a little time would do. Well for a quick update, my childs father (Damien) and I have reconciled. And "yes" it's a good thing..:) We had a mature adult conversation and both agreed that our relationship of 12yrs now is definately worth preserving. We're working together financially to get some much needed updates on the crib. My "Darling Knight" (Gavin) will be starting daycare this month and so we're all excited about that. He's getting soo.. big!! I swear he seems to grow overnight. So for the most part things at home are pretty good..:) Last Wed, though my mom pissed me off. She's came into $15,000 and when i asked her for $100.00 measly bucks (since 2weeks had passed and she hadnt offered a dime) she flies off the handle, screams "No" and hangs up in my face! Like WTF??? Like forreal?..You cant give me $100.00 and at least say it's for your grandchild?..just amazing! I don't know what kinda momma i got! That's like me getting 15,000 and not hitting her. I would never do that! But you know what i wasn't suprised. She stopped playing mommy to me when I was 15, but that's a whole different story on a whole different day... My music writing career is looking up!..:) I entered the VH1 "Save The Music" contest in August and though i didn't win 1st place i did win "Runner Up". They get submission from all over the world so that to me is a pretty big dam deal! I'm on my way..i can feel it in my bones..i know the Lord 's got a plan for me!. *Chow

Im good...f*ck that..GREAT!

Hey hey hay!!.. I must say, that i am officially over that looser. (Thank Heavens!) Yep no need to even log on to TRD actually. I have moved on and it feels fantastic! I wish him the best in all his endeavors..(not!)..lol But needless to say, i'm good...the kid has bounced back and i'm not bitter in the least bit! My heart is still big is all outdoors and it's in the right place..:))) *chow

So I broke!!!

and contacted his ass. I know..i know, but in all honesty i thought that he was commenting about me, when he replied on a "Blog" that someone posted on a different site. Now he already has slandered my name and exposed everything that we did on the internet for all to see. So the wordage he used in his comment rubbed me the wrong way. I just knew that it was about me. So i texted him asking if he was refferring to me and he says, "Girl i was not talking about you. Im not thinking about you. You must just wanted to text me." Now i would be lying if i said his words didnt sting. It would be like a dagger in my young heart to know that he really hasnt been thinking about me. But me being me, refuses to believe that. I'm sure i impacted his life just as much as he did mine. Any hopes of us reconciling is dead tho. Of course i can never just let things go. I've got to have a bigger bite and this is where the text arguing started. Im seriously thinking about shutting down my page. That boy just hurted me so bad, and i was mad at myself b/c i believed him and trusted him and he played me. Crazy cause i was playing other guys for him b/c i liked him so much. Hearing him tell me he loved me and doing all the things that he did for me, it's just so hard too just forget about him. Well maybe this will make it easier, because i swear on everything i love that i will not contact this man again. I pray that he gets what he deserves tho, for messing with women's feelings like this...

What if i dont...

Wanna forget him. What if i secretly hopes that he calls me and that we can be back tight like we were...what if i dont want to get over him? What if i dont want him to forget about me? I miss him soooo...much! And though it's becoming easier to deal with not talking to him anymore, i still miss him something awful! Why? We he was such a fucking jerk to me! When its clear that he is nothing but a lying asshole! Maybe it's because he wasnt all bad...he was real good to me actually...thats before the lie surfaced. I just feel like it was all for nothing. I should have known right from the start that he would go and break my heart....

Introducing Myself...ahem..

Hello beautiful peoples!! I am Deann Dmere and i am here to vent about everythang!..From my not so great relationship with my childs father of 11 dam years...to my new found love with Gavin, my little man. He's been here 2 years and he has been a true delight! I work this pesty job to pay the bills, but my true passion is writing. I'm working on it...hard trust! Prayfully you'll see this name up in lights in Hollywood reeeeeeeeal....soon. Okay enough about the kid already. Thanks for listenting. Chow!