Well..hellloooo there...

Long time no write! I'm over here bored as eva at this place called work. I had a pretty good extended weekend. The holiday was this past Thursday (Thanksgiving) and Gavin and I went over to my aunt's house (My moms sister) and ate and played cards and stuff the usual. I was beating they azz in "In the Middle" but ended up giving mama (grandma) $40.00 for her birthday, so that was about the majority of the cash i had won that nite. It's all good tho. Gavin was Phresh! You know his mama keeps him duggie! I'm just mad that i didnt get a pic of him. He was soo clingy over to my aunts..he wouldnt let me out of his sight let alone smile for a picture! I know it's b/c he doesn't know them. It's not like any of them reach out to us anyway. I was actually over to my other fam's house (Gina) for the Eve of Thanksgiving. I spent the night and stayed up late with my auntie (Carolyn) and my other mother (Gina) man them people show me and Gavin so much love it's breathtaking! Babysistah was here from school too for the holiday. I ended up staying over to my aunts for the holiday tho and noone got to see me and Gavin in our funky fresh purple rain over at Gina's!..lol.. It's okay next time... Friday morning i got up and went to the studio. I recorded 3 vocals for 3 tracks. So now all i'm waiting for is the production for the songs to be completed, so that i can shuffle them around a bit you know. I also recieved my letter of Registry from the United States Copyright office on Saturday! That's wassup! I'm on my way and i dont plan on stopping til i get there! My old buddy Alesha had a "Ladies nite" on Friday evening that i went too. I ended up staying over b/c we were all wasted and i was blasted! Good times tho.. Saturday me and Dame took Gavin to Chuckee Cheese. Eeew that place was a mad house! Gavin is so uppity..lol! You'd think we lived in a mansion. He didnt want to touch shyt or take off his coat. The place was bombarded with little rugged disheveled looking kids. Me and Dame ended up buying tokens and we played the games..lol! That Mario Cart is fun as hell! I may be investing in a Wii this x-mas. We went to dinner at Baraccos afterward. Sunday yesterday was chill day. I went to target and got some house cleaning and washing stuff. Still gots x-mas shopping to do and i still gotta get a tree! Hell this lil money dont last at all!!! I looked at my account today and was overdrawn 120.00! I was like dayum!!! I dont know why i be swiping this dam debit card like it's a credit card!..lol! Oh well The Lord always makes a way and if not i'll have to pull a few tricks..hehe..no not litterally!..lmao! But you know make some calls... Facebook brings you back together with all the people who you know. :)) I had always had a crush on this guy named "Mario Soloman" and so we exchanged numbers most recently and the conversation was pretty good..light stuff nothing too heavy. I admit that when i had him pick me up he didnt appeal to me the way he used to. So basically i wasn't attracted to his azz when i got to see him but i was still cordial and cool. Just not all over him and flirty like i probably would have had I still thought him to be a looker. I didn't end the convo and the text's and stuff tho...i kept the lines of communication open. Then one day last week he text me like, "Im thinking about you". I reply, ":) What about me" He then says, "I'm trying to see when you gonna let me bake them cakes!" WHAT! Delete you fool! The nerve of these guys!! Dam! I mean like are u serious. He's been texting me and i've been ignoring his azz. I dont respond well to ignorance (Chrissy) and so i rather say nothing than to chew his azz out! Last Wed before the Holiday i sent "him" my book to read the completed copy, but he's toooo scetchy with me in email convo. It's like pulling teeth to try to get a conversation flowing, so i'm like lata dude! Shiiid you aint gotta talk to this one if you dont want to babe. I did my part already by reaching out and that's all i'm gonna do! No kissing ass will be happening. I sent a "Happy turkey Day " text to all my contacts "him" included. I recieved the same wish back from all but him. He's such an asshole. His arrogance is just a mask for his insecurities. Oh well let someone else worry about all that. I was just looking to be cool and possible get another taste..*wags tongue..lol! But he's phucking that up!..Geesh..i tell you these clown ass nicca's! Oh well i still got 2 that love me to pieces (Dame and Gavin) well i'm sure it's more than that, but the others let pride get in the way.. That's my piece peoples... Peace..

TGIT!!!

Yes sir! B/c today is my Friday dammit! So for a lil update. I've been on a creative frenzy! I've been making some goodie good songs! I must admit myself and toot my own horn a bit.."tooot..toot!"..lol. I'm feeling pretty good. No real complaints. My last post was talking about me deading all the grudge issues I had with ppl. Charisma (Chrissy) was one that i failed to mentioned. Chrissy is well was a "Special" friend of mine and she and I would alllllllways bump heads. We would get along great for about 6 months and then BOOM!!!!...shit would blow the hell up and we would have the worst arguments. Well anyway when i put and end to all the other shit with My mom and Sly, she was also on my list of ppl to contact to get back right with. So i emailed her. Come to find out her azz has up and moved to Atlanta!! Like dam! She seems to be doing fantastic!..:) She's got her boys with her which is grand and seems to have truly found her happy place. Now i've got another place to go visit..hehehe. I've talked to my mom here and there and I plan on going over there soon me and Gavin you know to spend some much needed time with her. The conversation with Sly is light and easy. Good. Nothing to heavy. I'm soooo not trying to get back in that place that I was with him. Because the reality of the situation is that, that nigga lives in Florida! So me falling in love/lust or whatever is pointless. So i'm good with keeping it breezy and he seems to be okay with it as well. My aunts party was fun! It's always a great time hanging out with the fam. Me and my sister be dancing all dam nite! We had a good ol'e funky time. I be having to remind my water head ass uncle that im his neice! He's been locked down for 17yrs and most recently came home and is just too overly sexual in everything he does! Even his looks look dirty. I be having to tell him, "nigga i'm yo dam neice back the hell up!" But it's all good he just be needing a reminder sometimes. My cousin had some producer cats over at the party and I wooooed them with my writing skills. We set up some dates for this weekend actually to try and link up. I'm gonna have to reschedule that though, b/c i'm going to see Auntie in Virgina tomorrow morning! She goes for her second round of Chemo and needs somebody down there. I felt bad that i had told her waaaaaaay in advance that i would come and then today i talked to her and told her i wouldnt be able to get there. She was pissed!! She actually cursed at me which she's never did. So i shelled out a few dollars for the ticket and i'm gonna go see my aunt tomorrow..:)) She's always been there for me and all the rest of us, so it's only right to be there for her. I cant wait to see her too..I miss her! I was going to take Gavin, but i really dont want to. He's just getting over a cold himself. Plus i lied and told the reservationist on the phone that he was 1..lol. I would hate to go to the airport and then they be like, "Um ma'am you need a ticket for your child". Shiiiiid they was trying charge me $228.00 for a 2 yr old! Not me. So IDK i'll have to talk to Dame tonite and see what we can do... Alright that's it thats all I'm blowin this candy shop...TTYS... :))

I Feel Good!!..:))

Soo..to give you an update! Today was my first day back after being out an entire week ( ooh my check is gonna be so short!) However i am feeling a lot better. I called my mom and just deaded the whole issue with she and I and we are now back talking.:)) and i'm happy about that. I wanted so bad to go to church on Sunday, but missed it and just needed to channel all this anger i was harboring elsewhere. I was kind of glad i did miss church though, b/c it was Holy Communion and you know how dangerous it is, to drink and eat on that holy day and have anger in your heart towards someone. I hadn't cleared the air with my mom yet and eventhough i've denied it even to my own self, I was still angry at Big Man... So I actually sent him a text. Just to dead all that shit with him too..and it feels great! :) I was just tired of being mad and it really wasnt doing anything for me so..i let it go. I hung out with my old bestie Glenda on yesterday. Oh how i've missed her! She and I always jammed good together. Got us something to drink on..i had my lil supplement and we caught up..riding.. Rode out west..rode down on my uncle..yea good stuff! On the homefront things are.."eeeh" that's all i can say or would like to say about that. My Darling Gavin was Spiderman for Halloween. I know so cliche' but hey he's a kid dammit! I was too dam sick to do anything with him tho, so super Grandma "Graham" as we call her Gina saved the day and took my baby out. I would be completely and utterly lost without that woman. My Gosh!..She just don't know how much she's appreciated..i'm gone have to show her..she's got a bday coming up. She took Gavin out and said when he knocked on the door and said "Trick or Treat" the lady asked "So who are you s'pose to be?" He says, "Gavin"..lol that's right baby..you're you and I wouldn't have it any other way..:)) My aunt is having a party for her bday next Saturday..no kids allowed!..Whoo hoo! I loves the kids..yes i loves the chiren, but it's sooooo...many of them! I've got a hundred lil cousins and them together is a headache. So being w/o them for an evening is right on time...i'm ready! :))