Whats going on!!

Hello my lovely blog!! Today is FRIDAY!!! Thank heavens!! It took all the strength in my 5 foot body to get out of bed this morning! Whew! Well for a brief update let me see... Well, Damien and I have officially separated. Yes.. he has moved out. It was what needed to happen. We were arguing just waaaay too much and besides the intimacy and all that has dissolved years ago between us! It was just time to move on. So the only downside to him being gone of course is me footing the bills for EVERYTHING! Mortgage, Lights, Gas, Food, Phone, transportation..etc. So yea it's a lot! Oh and lets not forget the fact that he was the COOK! so fuck yea i am missing all the good eats and shit! I may have to invest in one of those Converter ovens that cooks whole meals in like 20 minutes straight from the freezer! Only because by the time i get home its close to 9pm! I be tired as hell! i don't feel like cooking nada! ..But the baby can't eat Mcdonalds and Popeyes every dam night!..So yea I've got to figure something out. Speaking of my baby boy..he is doing just fine! Getting bigger and taller! He's gonna be tall like his uncles i can tell! I've been searching for a new gig! With Damien gone i'll definitely need more money! Even though that little bit of money that i was able to squeeze out of his ass wasn't shit! I told him that he would have to give me $300 a month for Gavin ($150 every two weeks) so we'll see! I would hate to have to take him to child support, but i will if i have too! He's just too inconsistent! So last weekend was my H.S reunion. I went to some of the festivities and it was just nice to see everyone 10yrs later. Some people gained weight..some lost. Some even lost hair!..lol! I'm like dam! WTF happened?.. But anyway on Friday night the "Meet & Greet" was held at a club called "Juniors". So i go with my buddy Edress and we were having a good time. I had a few drinks and was feeling gooooood! So i see my ex-friends that DONT talk to me (Alesha, Shawndia and Tanesha) sitting against the wall. I go over being my usual breezy self and ask jokingly, "What yall having a Glamour Girl Meeting?" Just talking shit! I aint mean no harm at all. Anyways Alesha sloppy ass goes in!.. Like, "Aint nobody on that!..Aint nobody said shit to you....yadda yadda..yadda!" I mean pissed off! So clearly this big bitch is still mad at me ova some shit that happened last JUNE!!..lol! Girl let that shit goooooo!! So anyway she got her hands all in my face and everything!..lmao! Like she is really bad! So i slap her hand out my face and "Patty" another girl that we went to H.S with hauls off and punches me in the face!.. I couldn't believe it! I had never had an issue with Patty! so needless to say it was complete pandamonium in the place! I was flabbergasted! The picnic was that Sunday tho and Patty made her way over to me to apologize. I accepted the apology since i felt it was sincere and again i never had an issue with her! I guess she was protecting her amazonian BFF Alesha!..lmao! It's all good tho.. they can stay mad..i'm good! Bubba came and saw me on lunch last week in his drop top Benz and we was styling and profiling on Michigan avenue! People were looking like, "What that Black girl doing with that Asian boy!"..lol! Whateva! Bubba to quiet tho! I just take the lack of conversation as a muthafucka not really being interested! So thanks for the Ride and the spliff Bubba but, umm your number has been deleted..Sowwie..:( I go see my sissy this weekend! Yay!! Going to go and get my hair done for this LA trip on the 23rd. Burundi is s'pose to be sending for me..we'll see. He talk so much shit! He did put some money in my account for me last week tho, so we'll see what happens. I already put the time in at work so im ready!..Just waiting on him! If he fake me out i'm calling my buddy "Say-So" since he's in Vegas. See if he can send for me so i can come hang out down there with him for a weekend! I've started writing a second novel and its Gooooooood! I'm gonna start the process to get the first one published finally! I'm adamant about being progressive this year and getting things DONE! Okay that's my piece on this Friday afternoon PEACE!..:)

"You Better Leave Me"

http://youtu.be/zKsai_KiTiU I looove this song! Found it on another site called "Soul Bounce" and i am hooked!! Love how he flipped the whole script and made a song entitled "You better Leave me!" Man that is innovative! I'm mad as hell that i didn't come up with that first!..lol! I'm definitely inspired tho! Gonna see if i can play around with some words in my head and come up with something along similar lines! Dopeness!! I love it!!! :))

Beyonce “Till the End of Time” MP3

Beyonce “Till the End of Time” MP3 Hola!! I just heard this new Beyonce track on "TheFAder" and I Love it!! Great little summer song!! I can see me dancing to this come July 4th night!.:))

Moody Monday

Hola! Today i am not in the best of spirits. The weekend was actually pretty chill. I got out on Friday and hung out a bit with Kawanee and then BigMika it was cool. Saturday and Sunday the weather sucked major ass so i stayed in. So the thing that pissed me off this morning was the fact that Damien's ass complimented our4yr old at least 3 times this morning and didnt bother to say anything to me! Then on top of that he opens the door as we're leaving and yells, "Bye Gavin have a good day!" Okay like the baby is taking his fucking self to school you know?! Like how dam rude! You can't even say "Goodbye, have a good day" to me?.. That shit hurts my fucken feelings! Like is it really to the point where you can't say those small kind words to me?.. As much shit as i have to do! Get up at 7 iron me and Gavin's clothes, feed him!.. get him clean and dressed and ready for school! Wait on the bus..get off the bus take him in the school, wait BACK on the bus just so i can head downtown to work! All this shit EVERY DAM DAY and i can't get a "Have a good day?!" BULLSHIT!! I called that asshole and told him, "If i cant even get your ass to say "Good morning have a nice day" to me, then you really need to be getting up out my shit! Dam! I'm just so tired of being un happy, not loved, or tounched or even talked to for that matter! That "Get out" shit is played and i'm tired of even saying the shit! I just want a new start! Please Lord Help ME!! What the hell am I s'pose to be doing???? So lastweek sometime i viewed an apartment not to far from where i live. It was a 2bdrm for 750 a month which includes heat! The place wasn't anything to scream about, but it was quaint and affordable. I called the guy this morning and he told me that i've got it! I'm so afraid of making the wrong move! But i do know that if i continue living the way im living i'll continue to be unhappy and behind and miserable! I dont want that life!.. I'm tired of it.. I was taking my baby to school lastweek and this guy stopped in his car trying to talk to me. His name is Cornellius and he's a bit older and retired! So i gave him my # and the pussy calls me EVERY DAM DAY!! Like what the fuck dude! Slow the fuck down shit!! His old ass called me the whole dam weekend but I had my phone on silent and didn't feel like talking to his ass! So today i get to work and he calls, I figure i'd answer since the motherfucker called me about 20 dam times! So i answer and he's like, "This is Cornellius and i was looking for Ms. Ebony". So I'm like, "Ebony" my name isn't "Ebony. So this dumb ass instead of simply apologizing and saying, "Oh i'm sorry love and proceed from there, this dipshit tells me, "Well that's what you told me your name was.". I'm looking at my phone like what??.. GTFOH! I aint told you know shit like that! I said, "No i never told you that!" He's like, "Well im not about to argue with you, but that's what you told me!". Okay so i was already in a pissy ass mood and this old fuck just added to it! Hell naw you aint gotta argue with me about nothing asshole! Get the fuck off my line! I hung up in his dam face! Stop playing with me dude! And so "Bubba" is back on the scene..i guess.. *Shrugs*. He text me "Hey Spicy Lips" last week while i was here at work. We chatted for a bit and he told me that he's on crutches right now. Poor thang. So we made a date to link up tomorrow, but im gonna cancel. Tired of hanging out with these bullshit ass niccas! I need to find my happy place! And i'm just not in a mood to be entertaining some shit that's going absolutely nowhere!! Plus i don't talk to him enough to be going out "Hanging" with him! So Fuck Damien, Fuck Cornellius thirsty dumb ass and Fuck Bubba's fat ass too! I'm done with them all!!

I am loving this lil song!..

Werk B.S

Hey there!.. Well I am at this place called "Werk" and I just had to nip some shit in the bud! Now i've mentioned to 2 of my co-workers before that all the whispering and giggling that they do in the office is beyond rude! So both of them had the whole "Wide Eye" look when i brought it to them before and claimed that, I was tripping. So i thought hey maybe i was! But this morning I come in and they start it up again with all the whispering and shit so i called their asses out on it! I said, "All that whispering and shit that yall do is Rude!" So one co-worker, actually the one that was doing the whispering didn't utter a word. But the other one "Danielle" said, "She was tryna tell me something and it had nothing to do with you". I'm like, "How the hell do i know that?" The shit is just rude! Just cut it out PERIOD!! Dam! Talking about, "But we grown". Well Act like it! Geesh! So moving on from that. Let's see... Umm last week I went out to Woodridge to visit Charisma. She's got a nice place..she's trying to move tho. So yea i hung out with her for a lil bit. That shit with "Bubba's" ass may be over! He's stood me up not once but twice right now! So i'm positive that it won't be a third time! Asshole. Dame and I haven't been talking very much.. *Shrug* there's just not much to say anymore I guess. Oh last weekend Me, Timika and Erica took babysistah "Stasha" out for her 20th birthday! Man I can remember that girl being 7 when i first met Damien and now she's 20!! *Sniff* So grown up! And such a good girl! We went to "Mr. Browns Lounge" in the WestLoop and she had a few drinks and was feeling gooooood!..lol! She snagged the finest mofo in the club that night too!..lmao!! Good Stuff!.. Well that's about all i got to gossip about today.. Oh yea Osama Bin Laden is DEAD!! I'm not one to celebrate anyones death, but yea he's outta here! Oh well that's my piece on this hump day Peace!!..:))

Sooo played!!

so i made a video about things that are still said and done that are so fuccen PLAYED!!.. lol! I was highly annoyed!!..

Really Now??

Afternoon well evening just about!.. Today is Money making Monday and my mood isn't the very best! Well the weekend was pretty slowmotion. I didn't get into much mischief and pretty much stayed indoors. I got out for a bit on Friday. Hooked up with my old buddy from Grade School "Shanique" and we drank and laughed for awhile. I got to playing that "Michael Jackson Experience"and it was allll she wrote!..lol! I got a glimpse of Bubba on Friday night too. He came and bumped heads with me and we chilled for a min before I had him drop me off to Shanique. I sooo.. miss "Tomi boy". Was s'pose to hang out with him on Saturday, but was in straight lazy mode and decided to reschedule our time. IKR!! The Phuck! When we alllll...know that Tomi is the muthaphuka that we want!..lol! Oh well, hell you can't be so available to these niccas all the dam time! Tho i wanted to throw on some threads and hurry to him, i decided against it. Hopefully we'll get up later on during the week. So what brings me to blog this evening is "Bubba's" ass! So Saturday I ask him via text if he can buy me some perfume. I didn't really see the big dam deal! I mean it's $40 Perfume! Smell goods, come on now! So he asked me, "What was the name" but after I told him he got all dry and shit thru text like, you know there was an issue with him getting it for me. Okay now check this. I work. I can really buy my own $40 bottle of perfume or for that matter get another mofo to buy it okay! He has no issue with asking for Pics and videos and shyt but you wanna act all crazy when i ask you to get me something as small as perfume?? Okay so that was Sat and he really never said "Yes or No" about it. So today he sends me a text saying, "Man I lost all of your pics cuz i've got a new phone" so no problem.. i re-send the pics. Then i say, "So you never told me if you were getting me perfume or not. did you look online?" So this mofo says, "No i didn't look, but what if i told you no?" WHAT?!! So you know i'm pissed at this point right? cuz im thinking like, really what's the fucking deal?!. I can't get a dam bottle of perfume out cho ass??.. Get the fuck outta here! Miss me with the bullshit alright! Cheap ass bastard! Then to top it all off, last week he sent me some raunchy text asking me what color panties i had on.:) I replied, like "Green" And that was that. So today after he sends me this bullshit text asking me if i'm upset about the perfume and I say, "Nope" which is a dam lie im sure he knows! This fuck has the nerve to text, "But i'll take you shopping for panties tho". Umm excuse me pervert! I can go panty shopping on my dam own! I don't need your funky ass! Pissed me off! Typical man shit! You can't buy me perfume but you'll have no problem purchasing something that's along the lines of SEX! Stupid ass! He may have went and gotten his ass deleted for this dumb shit here! Jackass! Ugh! I can't believe you Bubba!!..smh.. Tomi just texted and Friday it is..Whoo hooo!!!.:)))))))))) Oh so why Saturday i receive a message from "Harry" saying, "Whatchu doing?..Come blow with me.." So i'm all for that! I reply, "Cool come scoop me." This motherfucker text back, "I can call you a cab and I've got $5 on it!" Boooooy if you dont get the fuck outta my inbox with that bullshit! Hammercy! I can't win for loosing with these dudes! So needless to say i ignored his ass b/c i didn't wanna have to curse his ass out! Just go away Harry! I'm just too good for you!..Sorry.. I was kinda bummed out and not being able to make "Brittain's" party on Sat at Crush. I couldn't find ANYONE to come with me! WTF!! I am in serious need of a female rappie! I swear that is one thing that I miss the most about my old BF "Alesha" that bitch would go ANYWHERE with me!..lol! I sure do miss that..:( "Burundi" put a call and a few texts in to me over the weekend too.. *Rolls eyes* IDK i'm just so over Burundi and all these nicca's who think they can get "Free Milk!" Not happening!! Call it what you want, but if they can open their mouths to ask for ass.. and tit pics.. and facetime and quality time and..videos..etc then my muthaphucking hand is open! The fuck they think this shit is ova here! "Tomi" know what it is!..These other niccas betta catch up and read the memo! Okay that's all I've got for today... Chow!

It's the weekend..again

I swear these days are rolling by! Good grief! Well for a brief update lets see. I hung out last weekend at this place called "Rumba" it was a pretty fun time! They gave you a Salsa lesson and everything while there..it was cool! The food was absolutely divine! I had "Empanadas" which is basically a Latin "Potpie" kinda dish! It was good tho. I met up with Tmani and Kawanee while I was there and it was decent. I texted "Tomi" while i was out and asked where he was. He was at the "Embassy" and asked me to come thru... Of course! I heart Tomi!..lol! He was having a lil party up there too! He had like 7 guys and like 5 girls there. Some of his college buddies from out of town were visiting. So they all got dressed to hit up "Shrine" and we stayed behind.:))) I asked him for $100bucks yesterday and he was nice enough to bring it all the way down to my gig, for me..Aww thank you Tomi boy♥♥ So my plans for this weekend include hanging out at this club "Charismaz" for this girl Brittain's bday. We'll see. I wanna hang out with Tomi again Saturday too, so i've gotta see what i can make happen. I deleted "Burundi" from my FB account. He's always got some shit to say to me that I don't like! I'm sure it's because I ignore him and don't really fuck with him that much. He just talks to much about all the shit he's "Doing" when in fact i don't see a dam thang! I mean he's in L.A and all, but he needs to learn how to court a woman! He just want's me falling all over him and all, but that's not about to happen! He ain't did shit for me so he can miss me with all that! I've been choppin it up with "Bubba" lately too! He's opening up a bit more and I'm learning him..its goodstuff.:) He's a mad cool dude. :)) I went online and found a comedy set that's happening at the Arie Crown on 4/30 so i want us to go! I'm sure he'll be down..I at least hope so!..lol. My best man "Gavin" is still fighting the last of his cold.. I'm gonna take him to the "Kids Table" on 04/29. That should be fun!. It's "Kids can Cook" and it's Mexican Fiesta night!.. So im excited about that!.:) Kids and Kites will be back here on 05/07 as well! He looooooved that event the last time we went there. So i am absolutely stoked about getting him back there. My girlfriend "Kawanee" lost her job on yesterday..:( bummer! With her trying to move and back in school for her Masters this couldn't have come at a badder time! She's a smart cookie tho and I'm absolutely sure she will be just fine. I had to remove "Chrissy" from my newsfeed on FB yesterday as well. She post much to much vulgar ish on FB! She's forever talking about how she likes to "Swallow" on there! Like seriously?.. Girl you look the fool! I swear some ppl just do shit for Shock value!..smh.. Just TMI!.. Gosh i swear i can't remain cool with that girl for long!.. I just don't really like her and the way she lives!.. But hey that's just my opinion.. Okay that's my piece on this Friday afternoon! Gonna hit the treadmill and run for a bit on lunch..chow bella! :)

Baby Bubba..:))

It is officially the weekend!!!.. Thank Heavens! I've got something planned for tomorrow night but tonight I am taking my ass HOME!..Man it took all I had in me to get my butt out of bed this a.m! Rain does that to you, you know?.. Well yesterday evening I hung out with my Chinese buddy "Bubba". Real cool, chill dude. I pride myself on having an eclectic group of friends/associates. Plus, its always cool to get to know about different cultures and how they live you know?.. Well anyway I met Bubba lastyear and we've hung out quite a few times and it's always been cool. He's really a gentleman and I absolutely adore that about him! He's always opening my door to the car..the restaurant..making sure i'm comfortable.. I appreciate all that.:) So lastnight we hit up "Jagrille" Jamaican Cuisine restaurant. The food was "Decent" nothing to take your breath away that's for dam sure! The few sisters/brothers that were there, stayed looking in our dam direction too!.. They bout were thinking, "What is this Black girl doing with a Chinese man in a Jamaican restaurant?"..lmao! Whateva! Phuck yall! So he ordered Curry Shrimp with Rice beans and plantain and convinced me to get the Oxtails. I was not at all pleased with my entree!..lol! He wanted to eat some of my oxtails tho, that's why he made me get them!.lol! We also had Honey glazed wings and Jamaican beef patties for the appetizers. I had a drink called "Jamaican Kiss" and it was goooooood. He doesn't drink so I had another one for him..lmao!! The ambiance is really nice at Jagrille tho..I'm sure it's really live in the summer, with the outdoor seating and all.. I'd recommend it.:) It was time to get me home after dinner and that was that. I'm gonna look to see if any comedy sets are coming up soon and maybe him and I can hit one up, cause I like hanging out with "Baby Bubba!".:) I've made plans to meet my my girl Taleice and Kawanee at "Rumba" tomorrow night so I'm ready for that! It's a Latin restaurant and lounge that's really nice! Great fare and music and I cant wait to shake my tail feather! Kawanee ass know's how to Salsa so I know she's ready to shut shyt down tomorrow!..lol! Well i'm looking forward to it!.. Gonna rock me a lil dress and whatknot!.:) Well that's my piece on this rainy Friday luvs.. Peace!..

Mike Posner - Bow Chicka Wow Wow ft. Lil Wayne

Im lovin this lil song right now!..lol..Bow chica Bow wow!...:)

Harry the Haitian!..

Hello there! Long time no Font!.:) Well I chose today to vent about my latest rendevous! So yesterday i decided to go and hang out with one of my Haitian friends "Harry". Now Harry is 35yrs young and honestly, one of the most respectable guys I have met in a loooooong time! For this reason alone I entertain our friendship. I mean I have a host of male platonic friends, i really don't need anymore! It's only a matter of time before they start to get that look in their eyes and want to become more that just "Friends", Be that as it may, there was just something about "Harry" that rubbed me the right way. So yesterday I wasn't feeling like carrying my ass straight home after work so I didn't! I called Harry and asked if he wanted to blow back.. sure he did! Come on ova! So I did. Now i had never been to this mans house, but considering he is 35 I'm giving the benefit of the doubt that you have your shit together!..At least your own place!.. So needless to say i get ova there and this mofo lives in the basement!! Yes the wet dank ass basement of his moms house! So I don't get to judging right then and there.. i wait. So then we go and take a seat in the cold ass dinningroom area with shit thrown all over the fuccen floor..like seriously boi??.. At this point i'm STILL no judge.. So he lights incensse Cool. I like Inscense..:) So not even 5 mins into the burning, he gets a loud pound on the door. He excuses himsself and goes to answer it. His MOTHER barges in and starts going HAM on his ass for lighting the inscense!..lmao!! I mean she is PISSED!!. She gets to speaking her native Haitian creole tongue and it is beyond embarrassing!! I hear thuds and things falling..i was actually scared! So like 20mins later he brings his ass back to the dinningroom laughing like the shit's funny when it's totally not!! So now, i'm side eyeing dude like "Really?" I ask, "Did you get in trouble?.." He's like, "Naw it's cool." Hmmmm..okay! So then we flame up and.. all of a sudden the lights go out!!!... *Sighs.. Power outage?..Or you didnt pay the bill?.. Either way i'm blowin this spot!! I'mma need you to getcho shit together with your living situation.. your mom...this inscense issue..and COMED before you invite anymore women over to your basement apartment to blow! Dam Harry!..smh...

Family

Well mine I swear the most aint worth a pot to piss in! Hello my lonely blog! How i've missed you so!..Happy new Year!! i plan on making this year a very productive one! I claim that this will be the year of progress and increase! The good Lord blessed me with $7,000 and I was able to get all the much needed repairs on my house! He also blessed me with giving me lower mortgage payments of $843 going forward so I am just elated about all that! So now that, all of that is in perspective i can focus more seriously on my music. I've vowed not to let anything or anyone deter me on my journey to land a musical placement this year! I'm sticking to that! I've also decided that after my bday (2/20) i will be giving up the spliffs FOR GOOD!! They just make me too lazy and i let a lot of things go undone. This year i will be traveling to "NEW YORK CITY!!" I know it's probably not a huge deal but it is to me, only b/c i've never been and have been trying to get there forever!! So i am traveling alone.. No sweat! Me being me i'm sure i'll meet someone out there to hang with! I'm just excited about the trip overall. I want a real NYC experience! Jamaican Beef Patty's and all!..lol! So, as far as family life goes, it's been pretty decent. I was blessed with some of the funds before the holidays and so i was in a real giving mood, so i gave out pretty nice gifts this year. Gavin had a great Christmas and his dad and I have been getting along pretty well (Thank God) We're not married or anything yet, but honestly i'm not for sure if Damien is the guy i would want to marry, so yea!..the jury's still out on that one. He has however been more reliable with funds for the house and bills and such, so that's been a relief. We shall see tho, b/c i've expressed to him how i WILL NOT do what we've been doing for another whole year so i must say there has been some improvements. I am not currently speaking with my sister or mother or maybe anyone on my mothers side of the family. I've just decided to throw in the towel with them. I honestly don't think they love me and Gavin so instead of continuing to wollow in it and wonder why they don't i just think its easier to accept that they don't and just keep it moving. Everything that happnes is s'posed to that's why it did, so my assumption is that Damien's family are My Family! That's the way God made it, so that's the way it is. It hurts but i've gotta be strong..like always. I love them, but they hurt me too much God and i just dont want to keep going thru that. So i ask that you cover me Lord and those that run across this Pray for me. Keep me Lord and hear my prayer. If there is any anger in my heart towards anyone i ask that you remove it. I forgive all those who have wronged me, but i haven't forgot. Continue to love me and guide me. In your name i pray forever and always Amen.