What if i dont...

Wanna forget him. What if i secretly hopes that he calls me and that we can be back tight like we were...what if i dont want to get over him? What if i dont want him to forget about me? I miss him soooo...much! And though it's becoming easier to deal with not talking to him anymore, i still miss him something awful! Why? We he was such a fucking jerk to me! When its clear that he is nothing but a lying asshole! Maybe it's because he wasnt all bad...he was real good to me actually...thats before the lie surfaced. I just feel like it was all for nothing. I should have known right from the start that he would go and break my heart....