Family

Well mine I swear the most aint worth a pot to piss in! Hello my lonely blog! How i've missed you so!..Happy new Year!! i plan on making this year a very productive one! I claim that this will be the year of progress and increase! The good Lord blessed me with $7,000 and I was able to get all the much needed repairs on my house! He also blessed me with giving me lower mortgage payments of $843 going forward so I am just elated about all that! So now that, all of that is in perspective i can focus more seriously on my music. I've vowed not to let anything or anyone deter me on my journey to land a musical placement this year! I'm sticking to that! I've also decided that after my bday (2/20) i will be giving up the spliffs FOR GOOD!! They just make me too lazy and i let a lot of things go undone. This year i will be traveling to "NEW YORK CITY!!" I know it's probably not a huge deal but it is to me, only b/c i've never been and have been trying to get there forever!! So i am traveling alone.. No sweat! Me being me i'm sure i'll meet someone out there to hang with! I'm just excited about the trip overall. I want a real NYC experience! Jamaican Beef Patty's and all!..lol! So, as far as family life goes, it's been pretty decent. I was blessed with some of the funds before the holidays and so i was in a real giving mood, so i gave out pretty nice gifts this year. Gavin had a great Christmas and his dad and I have been getting along pretty well (Thank God) We're not married or anything yet, but honestly i'm not for sure if Damien is the guy i would want to marry, so yea!..the jury's still out on that one. He has however been more reliable with funds for the house and bills and such, so that's been a relief. We shall see tho, b/c i've expressed to him how i WILL NOT do what we've been doing for another whole year so i must say there has been some improvements. I am not currently speaking with my sister or mother or maybe anyone on my mothers side of the family. I've just decided to throw in the towel with them. I honestly don't think they love me and Gavin so instead of continuing to wollow in it and wonder why they don't i just think its easier to accept that they don't and just keep it moving. Everything that happnes is s'posed to that's why it did, so my assumption is that Damien's family are My Family! That's the way God made it, so that's the way it is. It hurts but i've gotta be strong..like always. I love them, but they hurt me too much God and i just dont want to keep going thru that. So i ask that you cover me Lord and those that run across this Pray for me. Keep me Lord and hear my prayer. If there is any anger in my heart towards anyone i ask that you remove it. I forgive all those who have wronged me, but i haven't forgot. Continue to love me and guide me. In your name i pray forever and always Amen.