Moody Monday

Hola! Today i am not in the best of spirits. The weekend was actually pretty chill. I got out on Friday and hung out a bit with Kawanee and then BigMika it was cool. Saturday and Sunday the weather sucked major ass so i stayed in. So the thing that pissed me off this morning was the fact that Damien's ass complimented our4yr old at least 3 times this morning and didnt bother to say anything to me! Then on top of that he opens the door as we're leaving and yells, "Bye Gavin have a good day!" Okay like the baby is taking his fucking self to school you know?! Like how dam rude! You can't even say "Goodbye, have a good day" to me?.. That shit hurts my fucken feelings! Like is it really to the point where you can't say those small kind words to me?.. As much shit as i have to do! Get up at 7 iron me and Gavin's clothes, feed him!.. get him clean and dressed and ready for school! Wait on the bus..get off the bus take him in the school, wait BACK on the bus just so i can head downtown to work! All this shit EVERY DAM DAY and i can't get a "Have a good day?!" BULLSHIT!! I called that asshole and told him, "If i cant even get your ass to say "Good morning have a nice day" to me, then you really need to be getting up out my shit! Dam! I'm just so tired of being un happy, not loved, or tounched or even talked to for that matter! That "Get out" shit is played and i'm tired of even saying the shit! I just want a new start! Please Lord Help ME!! What the hell am I s'pose to be doing???? So lastweek sometime i viewed an apartment not to far from where i live. It was a 2bdrm for 750 a month which includes heat! The place wasn't anything to scream about, but it was quaint and affordable. I called the guy this morning and he told me that i've got it! I'm so afraid of making the wrong move! But i do know that if i continue living the way im living i'll continue to be unhappy and behind and miserable! I dont want that life!.. I'm tired of it.. I was taking my baby to school lastweek and this guy stopped in his car trying to talk to me. His name is Cornellius and he's a bit older and retired! So i gave him my # and the pussy calls me EVERY DAM DAY!! Like what the fuck dude! Slow the fuck down shit!! His old ass called me the whole dam weekend but I had my phone on silent and didn't feel like talking to his ass! So today i get to work and he calls, I figure i'd answer since the motherfucker called me about 20 dam times! So i answer and he's like, "This is Cornellius and i was looking for Ms. Ebony". So I'm like, "Ebony" my name isn't "Ebony. So this dumb ass instead of simply apologizing and saying, "Oh i'm sorry love and proceed from there, this dipshit tells me, "Well that's what you told me your name was.". I'm looking at my phone like what??.. GTFOH! I aint told you know shit like that! I said, "No i never told you that!" He's like, "Well im not about to argue with you, but that's what you told me!". Okay so i was already in a pissy ass mood and this old fuck just added to it! Hell naw you aint gotta argue with me about nothing asshole! Get the fuck off my line! I hung up in his dam face! Stop playing with me dude! And so "Bubba" is back on the scene..i guess.. *Shrugs*. He text me "Hey Spicy Lips" last week while i was here at work. We chatted for a bit and he told me that he's on crutches right now. Poor thang. So we made a date to link up tomorrow, but im gonna cancel. Tired of hanging out with these bullshit ass niccas! I need to find my happy place! And i'm just not in a mood to be entertaining some shit that's going absolutely nowhere!! Plus i don't talk to him enough to be going out "Hanging" with him! So Fuck Damien, Fuck Cornellius thirsty dumb ass and Fuck Bubba's fat ass too! I'm done with them all!!