I'm Sick!!

Somebody help me!.. My silly ass went out west lastnite to get my butta's whipped and ended up stopping in this lil candy store. They had alllll the old school candies and cookies and shit and so i purchased a few things. One being, "Hot Crunchy Curls" with nacho cheese and ground turkey! I know it sounds horrid, but it was actually good. So now today i am suffering BIGTIME!! Like running off and vomiting i'm like WTF?? Then my little babe Gavin is still not feeling well..:(. The MD diagnosed him with a "Upper Respitory" infection and he was getting fevers and had no appetite..i was scared to death! Now that the fever's have subsided he is now running off! He's such a little guy and i dont want him to get dehydrated, so i've gotta watch that. I pray it's not "Rotovirus" or something like that, b/c that is a very serious virus. I may just take him back to the E.R tonight..cause i've gotta make sure my main man is well.. So as far as my "romantic life" goes, it's pretty non-existant!. The new "Bo" that i met before i went out of town turned out to be a douche bag as well! Gat Dammit! I cant win for loosing with these muthafuckas!..Nigerians and all. Brief background: I went out and kicked it with him a few weeks ago and had a fucken blast! I mean he's charming too boot!.. and very attentive and stuff while im in his presence. I hooked up with him after work like on a Thursday and didn't make it home til about 2am..we had a ball!!.. But i end up leaving my phone at the bar up north where we were and had him go back and get it. I told him to just bring it down to my job in the a.m.. So when this nicca come to my gig, his face is all screwed up and shit and he's just acting all strange. So i put two and two together and figured he had to have went thru my phone. But when i got the phone there was nothing in it that was incriminating, so i wasn't sure what was with all the attitude. Unless he was ballsy enough to delete my shit! So basically everything went downhill from there. He stopped texting me..lol! And then when i text him he would reply hrs later, or sometimes just not at all. I must have missed the conversation when we decided that we were "Exclusive"..like WTF dude..i'm just really meeting your ass. So i send him some text about how he's being rude and yadda..yadda..yadda..that this will be my last time contacting his ass b/c i aint got time to chase no nicca! He then replies well fine! Have fun with your American and Jamaican boyfriend!.. Yep! He went thru my phone!..lol!.. How he know about my Jamaican friend??.. Lata for you dude, too much drama much too soon.. So yea another one bites the dust!... Bigman left me a msg on TRD saying "I like that profile pic sweetheart..sing me a song!"..lol Silly boy. I still got mad love for "BigMan" but i'm for sure not going backward. I'm focusing on me and my babe. Fucc all these niccas..cause they'll be there. I just gotta focus on getting me and Tuna out that sham of a house and work more on my music..gettting a demo and shit. All these niccas gone look like shit when i'm in Hollywood!..hahaha..whateva nicca right a "Tell All" book or some shit about me!..hahahah Kay that's my piece on this Friday Morning.. Peace.

Hey there!

So what's new & exciting in the world of ERICA??..Nuthing extreme thats for sure. I've just been working and living and laughing and smoking and singing and writing and playing and praying! And speaking of praying I REALLY I mean REALLY want to work on my relationship with the Lord! I haven't been to church in quite some time and I miss it terribly! I miss that feeling that I have once i'm walking out of church. It soooo sucks not having a car or not even knowing how to drive for that matter! So that is definately on my list of things to do in 2010. I gotta get me and Gavin a ride quick!..b/c his daddy works my dam nerve so much that we cant be in the same space for too long. Like this morning I over slept and had him bring me to work, he all but had a dam baby about the shit! Always pissing and moanin and I dont even ride in that dam car! And its amazing how everytime im in the bitch he needs "Gas Money" Nicca get the hell outta my face! I'm your child's mother for one and for two we live together!! I aint giving yo ass nothing! But see i was nice today and when he pulled up to my gig i handed him a $20 and said "Thanks, here cry baby". You know this fool thew my money on the seat like it wasnt shit and didn't bother to say thanks. He lucky i didnt haul off and slap his ass like i'm sure Rhianna did in that passenger seat of young Chrissy's car, but instead i fixed his money hunrgy ass and politely took my shit back! Then he gets to hollering all out the window, "Well at least give me $5 for gas for having to come all the way down here!." Ummmm..NO! Had your ass acted right you would have had the whole 20! I carried my ass in the building w/o looking back at his ass.. So i'm going to ATL for my bday! Yeeeea boi! Chrissy (Charisma) is out there and we're gonna have us a funky good time! I'm ready lord knows I am! I need a break from this madness. I'll be making a stop in "Florida" tho before i make it to her..hehehehe.. i know i know..but i'm "ME" and the last time i checked i do what i want! He doesn't even know i'll be there...but oh he will. Let's just call it a "Hooch Stop"..lol..a lil well actually a BIG birthday present to myself..:))))) kay lata..chow!

I'm sooo Excitied..yes again!

And i just cant hide it!!!! :)))) Hey there! Long time no font!..i know i know..but anyway update! So i've been going crazy on the Open Mic shit. I've just been doing them any dam way fuck it! I'm like I know i'm the writer, but i know that i can sang too, so why not sing them so that the songs can gain exposure you know?? Well anyway, most recently I went and did an open mic showcase at The Checkerboard" lounge in Hyde Park. This guy that I grew up with "Zamien" cute ass invited me out and so i went. I performed my baby, "Make U Mine" and you know i killled it!!!!..lmao!! They loved it!.. and showed me much much love! My mom even suprised me and came out for support, her and her Friend Annette. It was grand! Thats a nice spot too. They had nice strong $5 drinks all nite and food as well, the crowd was nice and sophisticated also. So i'll definately be back. I've gotta work on my voice tho, b/c a lot of the songs i've composed sound better if sung on a much higher note that I can attain myself, but hell i'mma try! Anyway after I was done this chick came up to me and wanted to know if i had any management. Real cute lil chick, of course I used "Isolated Music Ent" my lil cousin's name just so that she didnt think a sistah was out here all loosey goosey tho i am..lol. But all my shits copywritten anyway so, i'm cool. Well that was Tuesday and i hadn't talked to her yet. So i just got off the phone conversing with her for a bit about the things that she does and the industry folks that she's worked with. She does PR work for Def Jam and she's contracted with Jive records doing PR work for them as well. She mentioned the A&R executive "Kevin Shine" and of course my ass googled him..lol..so it's legit! Anyway she says that he's out in ATL now, but wants to see if we can arrange a date and time so that i can meet with him and let him hear my songs!!!! GREAT!!!! HELL YEA WE CAN! :)))) I'm soooo elated!! I pray that this is the contact that i've been waiting for. Usually I only get men who come up to me asking if i need a producer..yadda..yadda..yadda..but never a female. So i felt more comfortable and was able to turn down the charm a bit and be more about business. So prayfully i'm on my way, so me and my lil man Gavin can get the hell outta here!!!..Whoo Hoo!!!! Thank you Jesus!!!!

I'm so Excited!!!!

Hey hay hay!!.:) Yes i am excited! I must pat myself on the back for doing some major networking! It feels good! :) Update. Well Christmas was great! Gavin got a lot of cool things and i was sooo appreciative! My boss was trying to let me up out this peice at 6:30 on Christmas Eve, i was like oh-no! I've gotta hit the stores before they close and shit and they closed at 6:00! So thankfully he let me go at 4pm and so i was able to make it happen for my babe. I tell you this money dont last i promise! I've got to do something else hell. You work 2wks for a check that be gone in 2hrs!..smh. Well my good friend Chrissy was here for the holiday and we had a smashing good time like always. I can't wait to go down to Georgia and have a ball with her.:) As far as the networking goes, i was able to make a really good contact with Jennifer Hudson. We went to school together, but she was a year over me, but her cousin and I were cool. Well i reached out to her cousin on FB and fowarded my vocals to her and asked her to let Jennifer hear them. She text me today stating that she was going to make the pitch to Jenn for me tonite! *Crosses fingers, legs and eyes and toes!..lol! I told her beautiful and thank you ever so much! I think my song "Make U Mine" would be good for her, so we shall see. I also have been all ova the internet setting up all kinds of accounts and have been creating a lil buzz around my name "Deann Dmere" so i'm happy about that as well. My girl Alesha hooked me up with this producer/songwriter who wrote the song "Anything" for 112 and so i'm s'pose to link up with him Friday. I've been on the internet trying to locate the musician "Monica"'s manager. Her name is Melinda Dancil and she's her manager/aunt. I wanna pitch the song "Make U Mine to Monica with the video concept from So-Gone, like she's seeing Derek Luke's fione ass with another woman and all she wants is to make him her's again. Then they could like show clips of the old video and shit, maaaaaaan that'll be a hit! so i've got some numbers and stuff and i'm gonna be placing some calls.:) I perform tonite actually at this open mic with my cousin's friend "Dilly". He's the producer who's arranging beats for my vocals. He lost his mom rececently so it's been taking some time, which is understandable. He did tell me that he should have them completed tho, by Monday, so that's good... "Floridian" sent me a msg yesterday on the site. Yea i know right..funny! Anyway his message goes, "No Happy Birthday, No Merry Christmas, dam where's the love??" I was gonna respond but thought NOT!! Let him see how it feels to be ignored. Anyway what the fuck is wrong with your fingers?..You could have wished me a Merry Christmas fool! Fuuuuck you and your birthday! So lata for him, i've got other things I'm focusing on, like making it out this hell! I still haven't heard back from the publisher yet, but i'll give him until after the holidays before i start to bug him..lol. My girl Alesha will be in Vegas for NYE!!..Whoo Hoo!!! Wish i was there, that's okay tho, i'mma bring it in with my main man Gavin...i wouldn't have it any other way! Kay that's my piece for tonight peoples..Peace.

Happy Birthday!!!.. Not! Ha!

Mean it makes me, oh well i'll be that. Yep today is "His" birthday and he gets no love from me. Sorry but that's the way the cookie seems to be crumbling. I tried to be civil and cordial with that fool really I did, but he pushed me to the limit! I've been online all friggin day and i checked his page and seen that he logged in 4hrs ago. haha! Must have been to check to see if i confirmed that lame ass friend request he sent me. NOT!..gtfoh!! Surely you dont wanna talk to me. For what? And why send me some janky ass friend request online, when you've got my cell number, my work number, my email! Negro please! I'm done with your ass! I'm not playing! He must take me for a joke. And no no boo boo you aint even gotta try harder. No need to send flowers, or me an email or a late night text talking about "Sweetheart" i'm done! He only wants to play and i do that enough with Gavin. I'm about to be 27 almost 30 and i'm tired of playing these fucken games with these lame ass niccas. So fuck you and your birthday dude..cry about it..blog about..or do whateva it is that you country motherphuckas do! No love from this City sistah, cause seriously i'm done with his ass big d*ck and all!...lol Thats my peice peoples..Peace!

Done!

Yea i know i've said the shit before, but this time i mean it! Yes we're still talking about "him" i mean why does he have to be like a complete 100percent ass jerk! Like really?! My gosh! So just a brief rundown. Again things have been pretty breezy, nothing to heavy and i've been content on keeping it that way. That still doesn't take away from the fact that i wanted some more! Yea we're all adults here i hope. Well anyway. Me being me i get what the hell i want! It's been that way! Aint no shame in my game and the honest to gosh truth is that i want some more of that nicca! But he's acting like a fucken female!!! Ugh!!!! So anyway yesterday evening once i left the gig i placed a call to the "Floridian" only to be shut down once again. He's oh so busy and on his way to a football game. Cool. He says, "Shid just Text me". My reply cool, lata babe. Well i was a bit busy myself once i got home and so I didn't have a chance to text him until i was laying down for the night at like 11:30 my time 12:30 his. I texted, "Tell me something good babe before i go to sleep". You know me Queen Flirt..lol! anyway no reply. Fine figured he was sleep. So today once i return to the gig this morning, i open up the usual sites i visit. You know FB, Concreteloop and TRD as well. Sure enough he's on there, aint said a word. No good morning, i got your text, no hello, just nothing! I dont know who and where they den went and crowned this country bama Jesus, but he initates nothing! Now i didnt either, but replied to a few of his postings on a blog that he commented on. So the day is winding down and it's 3:00pm he leaves at 3:30. So i shoot a msg his way saying, "Whatchu doing ova there huh?" I see i gets no love today..you treat me so bad baby..:(" So his reply is, "Baby i'm so tired its a shame, i'm sorry." Such a crock of shit! He hasnt been to tired to chat on the internet for 8 hrs, but you're too tired to talk to me huh?. Sure. I deleted his ass! Fuck him! I'm tired of giving him the benefit of the doubt! All it seems to be doing is boosting his big ass ego. He really makes me sick. So when i sent the last msg, stating that he hasnt been to tired to talk online all day and how i know he got my text lastnight, he simply ignores me!..lol. Yep! Basically like umm fuck you bitch! So yea fuck you too bitch ass nigga! Tho i did want to do it again physically it doesnt look like it's gonna happen. His attitude sucks major azz and he's too damn rude! Common courtesy is a given and i'm done condoning his rude ass behavior. I was tempted to email or text him again when he didnt respond but decided against it. For what? Clearly i'm an option, or he feels like he has me in the palm of his hand. The only reason why i havent said that he's not interested, because who wouldn't be?..lol vain i know, but hey it's the truth! He wants me, he just doesnt want to let me know and would prefer to keep it to himself and likes that i initiate things with him. It's just confirmation to him that i'm still interested and im sure he loves it. Well i loved the d*ick more than anything. Oh yea and lets not forget that amazing facetime and all the free money! Oh well, it was good while it lasted, but for sure it's dead. He's extremely to pompous and rude and i dont respond well to ignorance. He's lucky i dont live out there, cause this type of shit doesnt happen to me. Had i lived in Florida his ass would have a black and blue eye for acting like a complete jerk!..lol..hell he deserves it. Well that's my ventilation on this Friday Evening. On my way to the x-mas party to get drunk.. Chow!

I'm working tomorrow..

Ugh! Not looking foward to that, but hey at least i've got a job. Been a minute since i've graced my own blog!..smh.. Well anyway what's new and exciting with me?..Not much. Let me see, well i've been doing some major networking with my writing and I must say that it's slowly paying off!.:) I was off on Monday of this week (The reason why im working Friday) But when i got here on Tuesday I had an email from this publisher based out in Atlanta (Argus O. Milton) who was referred to me from a good friend of mine. I submitted my manuscript to him a few weeks ago and he finally found the time to sit down and take a read. Well to make a long story short he liked it a lot!!:)) Liked it so much that his email stated that he wanted to move foward! Heeey Nah!!!!:)) C'mon publishing deal i can smell you in the air baby!..C'mon to mama! So i am stoked about that! I shared my good news with my FB fam, who of course showed me mad love, :)) Outside of that though, it's kind of disheartning since i didn't have anyone to really celebrate with..:(. Oh well being sad never helped any dam body so moving on... I've been doing some shows at open mic venues as well. I've been going for the most part to show support, but then i always get that "itch" and end up getting my ass on stage..lol! It's a real good feeling tho. And even greater when the crowd likes your material. Of course they liked me..who wouldnt?..:))) I've been hanging with my buddy Say-So (Randon) he's such a cool dude. Never has he tried to come on to me or you know get fresh with me. I appreciate that. I'm not trying to be all cozy with every guy i meet, and i'm glad he recognizes that. Most men think that you wanna sleep with them if you show a form of interest in them. Just goes to show you that its almost 2010 and men still dont have the slightest clue about us women. Him and I have the greatest conversations though about the opossite sex. We usually get together and pick eachother's brain about what women and men want from the other. He's a striving artist as well, so we also kick back and keep the creativity flowing with oneanother. I dont know why I jam better with men than I do with females. I think it's because most females have this huge misconception of me. They think, because i dress nice and spend a little money on my attire That im automatically some money making snob who thinks she's too good, when they couldn't be more wrong. But hey, cant please em all so i don't even try..i just keep it moving. Gavin is getting bigger every single day! And eats every five dam minutes! You'd think i was a millionaire or some shit! I'm trying to get there Gavin baby, cut momma some slack hell! Then he's picky as eva! Never seen a 2 yr old so picky about food. Says he wants pizza. I make pizza then he says, "I dont want it. I want French Fries." So I make fries and then he says "I dont want it. I want hotdog" I make that shit and then he does the same thing! I be like boy!!! You betta eat cuz aint no whole lot of selections poppin off ova here! The state don't give mommy nooo.. assistance with food purchases..yo lil ass gone mess around and starve!..you betta eat!..lol! I love my lil darling Knight tho and oh boy does he love his mommy!:)) My twin nephews turned 1 on the 12th of this month and me and Gavin went to the party. It was nice. I tell you this time waits for noone! That's why i've gotta make it happen sooner rather than later..i will...with the Lords help i will. Oh and I will be in church Sunday this I promise. Kay that's my piece..Peace!